The First Year

The first year was not what I expected. I had random periods from coming off of birth control (which I had only used for a few months).  I took a billion pregnancy tests. I was still really moody from the birth control and extra emotional from trying to get pregnant without seeing it happen.  I was a newly wed, a California girl living in Oklahoma while my husband finished up at ORU, working random part time jobs, with no benefits and not a whole lot of understanding of what was going on. I felt powerless and frustrated, both feelings I would become very intimate with in the future, but I was still very hopeful and optimistic. 

First things first, I started reading books about fertility. My favorite was Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler.  By using the methods in this book I was actually able to pin point the problem I was having....I was not ovulation. After 8 months of trying  we decided to scrape together the funds to go see a doctor. (I didn't know for sure at this point that I was not ovulating). My doctor was very helpful and did the first of many tests that we would go through. These were blood tests and thyroid scans.  Nothing really was figured out before we moved back home to California.  My hubby got a great job, well, he got a job that had great benefits and little else.  

So I started to going to an actually OB-GYN. I figured who better to help me figure out my "girlie" problems than someone who specializes in the area.  For me this was not a great avenue. (I have to interject here, I have a horrible fear of needles; I get light-headed, sweaty, nauseous and usually pass out when I get shots or have blood drawn). The doctor I chose decided that I didn't know what I was saying when I told her that I was not ovulating. So after 3 months of blood tests and Dr. visits, fainting and sickness, my Dr. told me that I was not ovulating....Are you kidding me, didn't I tell her that when I began?!!? It was at that point that I decided to move on to other options in the field of medicine.